My dear Esther, keep on going with Him

The day when she will leave is near and near. Though the city is so far away from Beijing, there is nothing larger than God's love and plan. We are the best friends and partners in one part of His eternal story, so we are the best friends forever.
One and a half months ago, we watched the paralympic games together, and I was deeply moved by a scene that two disabled Japanese athletes run attack the finish line almost shoulder to shoulder. The two were not perfect, who even could not do what common people can do, but they finally won through daily practice, sufferings and the fear when facing the battle. The most important, they won the game together, as friends, as partners, as ambassadors of the same nation. In the kingdom of God, I desire to have this kind of friends when I am running on His narrow and straight road. At that time, My heart was touched by the relationship between Esther and me. It is her that is who I desire.
From the combination of the two New Life small group, we have leaded the group together for more than half a year. What's so amazing the relationship between us! It is not chosen by us. It's chosen by God, our glory shepherd! I am so attracted by the relationship between God and Esther while her heart and soul is all belong to Him. I'm so happy that God is the biggest in her life, not me or anything else. Interestingly, I don't know why I am so special in her eyes. She often praised me for letting her see more character of God she never found before, but I didn't do anything special, just eating, speaking as normal. A good friend from God makes me know more about what I look like in His eyes. I always confused about so many lies from the world that I have no value, no beauty, even though I have been His child, and so on. But Esther is indeed one way He values me, loves me, and fights for me!
The days we was preparing together to go to Central Asia are amazing. The days we talked about Africa and family are encouraged me much to listen to the calling from Lord. The days we laughed and cried are always support me to face all circumstances. When you leave, my life seems to be dim. I admit, I really don't want you to go. However, God chosed me to stay with you when you face the choice. You have tried your best to seek the will of God and devoted yourself to Him, the one both of us love most. You are a shining star because you are the princess of the King, a princess knows so much about His love and loves Him extremely. When the star are pinned to the sky of another city, He calls me:" Shine, spread more light here." And His light becomes stronger and stronger that I cannot help praising for His great love.
Dear, come on! We are always together. and He is with you!

The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want. He makes me lie down in green pastures;
he leads me beside quiet waters;
he restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil;
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff-- they comfort me.
You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies;
you anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.
Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever.
--Psalms 23

I just want to be where You are

" I just want to be where You are
Dwelling daily in Your presence
I don't want to worship from afar
Draw me near to where You are

I just want to be where You are
In Your dwelling place forever
Take me to the place where You are
I just want to be with You

I want to be where You are
Dwelling in Your presence
Feasting at Your table
Surrounded by Your glory
In Your presence that's
Where I always want to be
I just want to be
I just want to be with You

O my God, You are my strength and my song
and when I'm in Your presence
Though I'm weak You're always strong..."
-- I just want to be where You are

My dear heavenly father, thank you so much for your daily presence bracing me. You are God who want to be where we are! Please give me more eagerness to know you more, to stand nearer to you. You granted my prayer everyday to bless me and enlarge my territory! Your hand is always with me and keep me from harm. God, you are so great, so merciful, so perfect! You are the Lord who called me out of darkness and into your marvelous light through Jesus Christ--your loving and only Son. May all people in all nations meet you!
God with us! In the name of Jesus. Amen!